Bathos! Crippling ennui! Mind-numbing drudgery! Brad Renfield is a white, middle-aged, lower middle class, Midwestern man stuck in Gethsemane, Ohio. Most of his friends have either died or moved away and his one remaining friend is so depressed he´s on the brink of suicide. Brad hasn´t really given much thought to the chasm of emptiness within him. He´s mostly been a loner, content with his job and his tiny apartment. He´s never thought much about being part of something. He´s never really thought about the bigger picture. Until he meets a beautiful (and possibly psychotic) girl named Dawn. Dawn leads Brad into a vicious world as hedonistically carnal as it is brutal, forcing Brad to decide if he´s going to dig deep within himself and continue to resist the community he´s remained apart from his entire life or embrace it and accept his new reality. 1. Language: English. Narrator: Andersen Prunty. Audio sample: http://samples.audible.de/bk/acx0/087138/bk_acx0_087138_sample.mp3. Digital audiobook in aax.
The smartest decision Daniel Long ever made was to take a hit out on his own life. Too scared to kill himself but also too scared to live, he is a sad, pathetic man; a miserable martyr of depression.A year after he was dumped by his self-centered alcoholic girlfriend, he still wallows in the hole she left behind. And, except for the cubicle that he spends 40 hours a week in, Daniel rarely leaves the bare white walls that make up his apartment.Trapped in his self-made ennui, his only escape is to hire a hitman. But when one of his few friends kills herself Daniel realizes the error of his ways. He tries to cancel the hit but in the process he offends his contracted killer. Now his impending death is personal and his life is about to get more exciting than he ever could have imagined. 1. Language: English. Narrator: Rob Autman. Audio sample: http://samples.audible.de/bk/acx0/155588/bk_acx0_155588_sample.mp3. Digital audiobook in aax.
This radio series is a collection of short pieces reflecting on life, love, and death among the species. It contains monologues, montages, portraits, and dreams. Some are funny, some are strange, some enlightening, some sobering: ´´Hide and Seek´´: Animal trainer and behaviorist Ken Decroo tells the story of the first time he talked to a chimpanzee and the chimp talked back. An aural metaphor ends this piece. ´´Noah´s Ark´´: A strange blend of Beethoven and speculation about the thoughts of cattle at the moment of death. (Caveat: contains some graphic description of the slaughtering process) ´´Snakes´´: A montage meditating on the worth, or worthlessness, of the legless reptile. Civilized and primitive man collide...In discussing the snake, the human is revealed. ´´Treeline´´: Vietnam veteran Jim McMullen tells of the time he shot a blackbird outside his hometown, and was compelled to destroy his weapons for good. ´´Michi Belle White and the Birds´´: A portrait of a California woman who takes in sick wild birds and fills her house with them. ´´Killer Whales´´: A brief sound essay on the derivation of this whale´s name, its seductive behavior toward the producer´s wife, and its penchant for making repulsive noises. ´´Subtext: Communicating with Horses´´: An animal psychologist searches for the source of one horse´s ennui. The horse responds with a story of dislocation and lost youth. ´´Reflections of Fathers´´: a.k.a. ´´Bugs and Dads,´´ this piece is about John May´s insect museum, his love for his father, and the reflections of all fathers in all children. ´´Dog´s Dreams´´: A meditation on the longtime relationship between man and dog. What are our dreams about each other...and our nightmares? ´´Cross my Path´´: Leo Grillo can´t stand to see an animal suffer. So he´s got about 300 stray dogs and cats, and if he can´t find homes for them, he keeps them until they die of natur 1. Language: English. Narrator: various. Audio sample: http://samples.audible.de/rt/jaya/000007/rt_jaya_000007_sample.mp3. Digital audiobook in aax.
The price of emotional renunciation is a constant, wasteful expenditure of energy that leaves us depressed and taciturn, imprisoned in the apathy and ennui of the ´´seen that, been there, done that´´ syndrome. When we surrender and soften to our feelings, we reconnect with our inborn vitality and with the invaluable instinct and intuition that our feelings naturally carry. The Tao of Fully Feeling describes the middle ground of emotional aliveness that lies between emotional deadness and emotional explosiveness. It helps us to soften and relax into our feelings without exiling them or enshrining them. It guides us to be emotionally expressive in benign, intimacy-enhancing ways. The Tao of Fully Feeling teaches us to respond to our painful and potentially disruptive feelings in healthy ways. It illustrates the enriching aspects of the so-called negative emotions and helps us achieve the emotional flexibility whereby sadness easily mellows into solace, anger unfolds into laughter, fear evolves into excitement, jealousy opens up into appreciation, and blame gives way to forgiveness. The Tao of Fully Feeling refutes the black-and-white notion that blame is never justifiable. It describes safe, nondestructive ways of feeling and expressing blame - ways that ironically enhance our capacity to feel genuine forgiveness. When we authentically forgive our parents, we know what we are forgiving them for and what specifically was blameworthy about their behavior in the first place. When we forgive before we blame, we risk dragging the full weight of our childhood hurt and anger around forever, like an exhausted backpacker who is too dulled and over-trusting to notice that someone has put a boulder in his/her pack. 1. Language: English. Narrator: Christopher Grove. Audio sample: http://samples.audible.de/bk/tant/014410/bk_tant_014410_sample.mp3. Digital audiobook in aax.